Stargazer's Journal

Just for Ken...

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 17:20:17 GMT

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 07:15:10 GMT

There is nothing worse than having a REALLY bad toothache, and KNOWING what might need to be done to it. Right now, my tooth (#3 for us dental assistants, current and former), is killing me. I have a crown on it, and I've had problems with this tooth for years, but it was never to the point that it hurt to TALK. That's how bad it is. I can't bite down, and I have to eat soft foods. Noodles are great. They don't require any chewing! I'm going to a dentist in town tomorrow to get it taken care of, and I probably know what is going to happen. He'll take an x-ray, see a very large abscess, and tell me that I shouldn't have let it go this long, and that I either need A) a root canal, or B) they need to pull the tooth. The second option is only if it is very severe, and judging by how long I've had these problems, and what the x-ray shows, it might be a possibility. It's the reason that I'm up at 3 in the morning. I was asleep, but it woke me up.

Just for Amy:
It's #3, the crown that Dr. H did a few years ago and found the hole in the old crown. Sensitive to pressure, and cold temps. It wakes me up at night. I had pain in the lower teeth starting Sunday morning at 3:30 AM, and it then went into the top teeth on Monday, and specifically that tooth Monday Night. I haven't been able to chew on that side for years, and It's been sensitive to pressure and cold for a while. And how sad is this: I know that they will take a PA with a stabe! I need help!

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 22:10:15 GMT

I feel very ADD today... I only took notes when I needed to and didn't pay attention to what my teachers said. I don't even really remember what I took notes on. I think that.... OOHHH.... Pretty kitty.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 01:20:30 GMT

OMG... that's too funny! Oh well...

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 17:22:11 GMT

Tonight, I find out who will be the vice president next year. It's kinda weird knowing that this will be the person who will take over my spot, and that I'm responsible for making sure they know what to do. It just makes me feel weird knowing that this year is almost over. I mean, Lil sibs weekend is in 3 weeks. 4 and a half weeks until Ken graduates, moves back home, and I'm stuck here for the summer. THen comes internship. We still haven't found out which hospitals we're going. I want to know. I need to start figuring out housing. This sucks.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 00:34:50 GMT

Wow. What a weekend. I went to MORHA (Michigan Organization of Residence Hall Associations) this weekend at SVSU. It was awesome. Everyone who went was awesome, but there were moments when I wanted to run away. The theme was around the W.O.R.L.D. and each school had a country they had to represent, and Ferris was France. We got to were berets, even though I'll probably never wear it again. But it was fun. We stayed in the rec center on campus the first night. That was interesting. There was a guy named Chris from Alma in the same room as us, and he was fairly amused by us, considering that half the delegation was making sexual comments all weekend (But when you get boned, carded, teabagged, mounted and the slap, you can't help but think it's dirty.) The facilities were really awesome, except for the community showers, but taking a shower at 2:30 AM can fix that.

"Why do they have Egyptian hieroglyphs in their logo?"
"Maybe they're from Egyptia."

So after 3 hours of sleep, we had a day full of programs. Tara and I presented one called "The Stages of Life." Ours didn't make top 6, but Victor's did. And our banner won best "Flag" (banner). After programs, we got to go to the hotel we were staying at. We stayed at the Bay Valley Resort. That place was gorgeous. The banquet was held in the dining room. Awards were passed out, and speeches were given. It was cool. Afterwards there was a dance, and hopefully one of the other delegates will get a date or 2 out of it!

Anyways, I'm glad to be back.

Last night I stayed at Ken's, and he drove me back to my hall at 7 AM so I could go to my classes. I had my RADI 111, but RADI 102 was canceled again. Lab was canceled, and SLA was canceled, so I had one class all day. I've been so bored... I cleaned the fish bowl, his smaller one I transport him in, the bathroom, my room, I did my taxes, signed up for thefacebook, even though I don't know why. So I guess it's been a pretty semi-productive day.

I'm working at the desk for Beth cuz she's sick, and I have RHA at 9. We probably won't have enough people, considering there's no classes tomorrow. Oh well.

I have stuff to do, so I'm going.

Stolen from Beth

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 04:43:33 GMT

If I were a month, I'd be: June
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Saturday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 11pm
If I were a planet, I'd be: Venus
If I were a sea animal, I'd be: A dolphin
If I were a direction, I'd be: South
If I were a sin, I'd be: Lust
If I were a liquid, I'd be: Cherry Pepsi
If I were a tree, I'd be: A palm tree
If I were a bird, I'd be: A lovebird
If I were a tool, I'd be: A screwdriver
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: Lilacs
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: Sunny
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: A unicorn
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: A piano
If I were an animal, I'd be: A cat
If I were a color, I'd be: Purple
If I were an emotion, I'd be: Happy
If I were a vegetable, I'd be: None
If I were a sound, I'd be: Waves
If I were an element, I'd be: Water
If I were a car, I'd be: A plymoth Prowler
If I were a song, I'd be:
If I were a movie, I'd be: Notting Hill
If I were a book, I'd be: Unicorn Highway by David Lee Jones
If I were a place, I'd be: The Maldives
If I were a material, I'd be: Fleece
If I were a taste, I'd be: Sweet
If I were a scent, I'd be: Tommy Freedom
If I were a word, I'd be: Love
If I were an object, I'd be: Something soft
If I were a body part, I'd be: A smile
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: A smile
If I were a subject in school, I'd be: Spanish
If I were a shape, I'd be: A sun
If I were a number, I'd be: 22

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 04:16:10 GMT

I know I haven't really updated. I've been really busy with classes, homework, RHA, programming for RHA... The Bethany Schumaker Tournament I ran went awesome. We raised $700 for the American Cancer Society.

Last week was spring break. I didn't go anywhere exotic... Well, at least not PHYSICALLY! I got to sleep in past 9 which is good. Until 11 most of the week. I got to spend a lot of time with Ken, too. I really enjoyed our week.

I took Casey to the vets over the break, ad they took an x-ray (YAY) of her spine and hips. As soon as the vet put it on the lightboard, I saw what was wrong. She has arthritis in 4 consecutive joints. One is REALLY bad (on a scale of 1-10, I would say it was a 9), the next two were mild, and then another really bad one, probably about an 8. So we got medicine for her, and hopefully it will get better, or just not progress anymore. Me and my dad were thinking about it last week, and we figured out that we got her in 1993, and at that time, she was probably less than a year old. So she's at least 12 years old.

And I really had a chance to spend time with my dad over break. We haven't been close since Linda came into the picture. She put a lot of space between me and my dad. But he called me the other day and left a message, and he called me sweetheart. That made my day.

This weekend is MORHA, and I have a presentation tomorrow, so, I'm going to go.

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 06:59:59 GMT

I'm drunk. I'm hanging out with Ken, Ryan, and ... damn, i don; t remember her name. sf nluAEYDjd GOD DAMN RYAN<>>> EAase up oiff me. I;m really drunk. Yay for alcohol. I feel good. drunk enough, but not to the point of being sick.

I love Ken. Yes, you. Ken. :-*

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 21:12:56 GMT

I saw this in a friend of a friends joyrnal. Thought I would do another survey...

How old are you? 23
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)old
Describe yourself in 5 words: caring, friendly, loveing, devoted, loyal
What are your worst qualities: a lot fo things
What are your best qualities: a lot of things
How long does it take you get get ready in the morning: an hour if I curl my hair, 40 minutes if I don't

~SLEEP~
Do you dream at night? yes
Do you remember your dreams? sometimes
What time do you go to bed usually? 12-1
What time do you wake up normally? M-W: 7AM; T-TH: 11AM; F-SAT-SUN: whenever I need to
What time do you wake on weekends? Early if I need to, otherwise, whenever I wake up
Do you find waking late nice or annoying? I would do it everyday if I could
Do you sleep with one pillow or two? I use 1 when I sleep, but I have 3-4 on my bed

~SCHOOL~
Did you like school? it's ok
Why/why not? It's school, but I like learning how to do x-rays
What is/was ur fave subject? my radiography classes, human sexuality
Most hated subject? math, history, english
Did you have a fav teacher? Mr. Scott in 6th grade, my high school anatomy teacher, but I can't remember his name, Dr. Friar, and Mr. Mayhew, but he left for FLA
Ever had a crush ona teacher? nope
Were you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? science

~FRIENDS~
Do you have heaps of friends? I don't have a lot, but the ones I do have, I'm really close to
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? girl
Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? not often
Have you ever lied to a friend? yes
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? never

~FAMILY~
Do you like your parents? I love them. More than they know
Ever run away from home? no
Ever thought about it? no
Do you have any siblings? None
If so, do you like or get annoyed with them?
How old are they?
If not, do you mind being an only child? It's ok, but I really wish I had siblings
Do you feel your parents spoil you? People say I am since I'm an only child, but I'm really not. They don't know what my childhood was like. They don't know how my parents struggled
Do you not get along with any of your family? My step-monster-bitch-mom Linda
Do you have big family get togethers ever? Christmas (and funerals)

~Sex~
Ever had sex? Yes
Do you believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage? It depends on the person and their own persnal beliefs. If they want to have sex before marriage, then go for it. Wrap it up though
Believe in casual sex? It works for some people, but it's not my thing.
When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? 19
Did you regret it? No

~Religion~
Do you have a religion? I was raised Catholic
Do you practice it i.e go to church? no
Do you believe in God? I'm not really sure
Jesus? Not sure
Satan? Not Sure
Heaven? I would like to. I would like to think that my grandma is in a good place, and that she's happy
Hell? Not sure
If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you? i will be dead (I love this answer

~Morals~
Have you ever been drunk? yes
Taken drugs? leagally, when I had my wisdom teeth out
stolen? yeah
shoplifted? yeah, some cany when I was 5
tried to commit suicide? no
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? Once, and it's one of the few things I regret in my life.
gotten into a fight? yes
are you more innocent or guilty? innocent
Would you date a drug addict? no
have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? no
Are you racist? no
Are you discriminatory to anyone? I try not to be, but I'm sure I am sometimes
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? a few times
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? open

~Media~
Do you watch tons of tv? Not really, only a few shows. I would say about 2-3 hours per week
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? 2-3 times
Do you listen to the radio often? I listen to my CD's more than the radio.
Do you read the newspaper? no
Do you read magazines? sometimes
Are you a couch potato? Sometimes, but not that often.
Do you use the internet too much? WAY too much

~Music~
Whats your fave style of music? Music that isn't overplayed on the radio.
Do you play an instrument? I played the flute in high school
Do you sing? in my car
Whats your fave singer? Eve 6, Rooney, Keane, Pete Yorn, Maroon 5, The Killers, Ok Go, Phantom Planet, Gavin DeGraw, Simon & Garfunkel, the Cranberries, Jet
Why? They make good music
Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year: Maroon 5, the Killers, Gavin DeGraw, Franz Ferdinand, Jet, Keane
Why did you buy them? Because I like them

~perosnality~
Are you funny or serious? I try to be funny
Creative or not? Creative
Logical thinker or lateral thinker? logical
Are you outgoing or shy? I'm kind of in the middle, but I'm trying to be more outgoing
Are you lazy or active? both
Have you ever been hyperactive? Sure, whe I was a kid
Are you a naturally hyperactive person? not really

~Looks~
Are you happy with the way you look? yes
What would you change? My weight and eating habits
Do you wear makeup regularly? yes
Do you have a large wardrobe? Somewhat, but not really

~Money~
Do you have a job? I sometimes work at the desk of my hall, and back home, I work for Staples, but I think they had to let me go cuz I never came back to work
Do you like it? Somewhat
Are you a saver or a spender? spender
Do you work hard or slack off? work hard and slack off
Have you ever been fired? no
In trouble at work? no
Made a major mistake? no
Ever had money stolen from you? no
Are you always broke? No

Because it's the cool thing to do...

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 02:46:33 GMT

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My kitty

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 04:42:34 GMT

I went home this weekend. I try not to go home that much, but I wish I had gone home sooner. One of the things I miss the most about home is my cat, Casey. While at home, I noticed that she was walking a little funny. Her back had a bit of a curve to it, and her legs looked like they were stiff. I picked her up, and felt her legs. There was a knot back there, but it wasn't big enough to cause problems. I cut it out, and she was still walking funny. I asked my step-sister if she had noticed it, and she said yeah. She said Casey had been like that for a few weeks.

When my dad called me the next day, I asked him about it. He said that he noticed it too, and that Casey even let my step-sister help her on his bathroom counter to drink from the faucet. That tells me that even Casey knows something is wrong if she lets people touch her(she only lets me and my dad pet her, or pick her up)

My dad is going to call the vet this week, and I will make sure he does. He can't let this go like other things.

She's already 13 years old. We got her in 1992, and she was about a ear old.

I'm so worried about her. I love her so much. I hope she's ok, and that it's nothing serious.

boredom = fun with HTML

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 00:34:00 GMT

BOREDOM

Hey! I'm starting to understand how to make colorbars!!!

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 04:30:54 GMT

OK, I feel loved. Only one person responded to my quiz thingy last post. That's real motivation to update more often...

Stolen from Beth

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 05:44:10 GMT

would you...

Give me your number?
Have sex with me?
Let me kiss you?
Watch a movie with me?
Let me take you out to dinner?
Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
Take a shower with me?
Be my bf/gf?
Have a fling with me?
Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
Take me home for the night?
Would you let me sleep in your bed?
Sing car kareoke w/ me?
Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
Come pick me up at 3 am because I'm lost in the middle of nowhere?
Do you think im pretty, beautiful, or hot?
Do you like my style?
Do you think im funny?
Do you care about me?
Would you cry if i died?
Would you dance with me?
Tell me the truth about how i look?
Give me a hug if i needed it?
Call me on the phone just to say you love me?
Give up your life ,if it would save mine?
Keep a secret if i told you one?
Give me your jacket if i was really cold?
Would you let me cry on your shoulder even if i was crying over something you thought of as stupid?

YOU HAD ALL BETTER ANSWER!!!!

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 04:07:41 GMT

I'm so tired. I think I have too many shifts at the front desk. Today, I've been up since 4 AM, with 2 one-hour long naps. I might give up my Tuesday night shift. But I don't want to cuz it's with my woog, Tracy. But it's also right before my classes. It might just be because I have too much gonig on right now. I'm the main person planning the Bethany Shumaker Volleyball Tournament in February. I couldn't take my usual nap today after classes because I was doing so much stuff for the tournament.

But at the same time, I'm over working myself. I've been doing so much that I haven't had much time to spend with my woogs. I have seen Ken a lot, which is a plus.

Oh well, it will all work itself out in the end.

I hope you get better soon Beth, cuz we need to have a Woog Night Out!

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 05:40:51 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!

I'm insomniatic tonight

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 07:13:10 GMT

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 20:56:02 GMT

Hello everyone, I am alive. I was just so busy over break, and we still have dial-up, so I didn't go online much. If I did it was at Ken's, and that was only to check my email.

So Christmas break was good. I had a site visit to a hospital on December 17th, so I was one of the last people to leave school. I left on Saturday around noon. The first part of my break between the 18th and Christmas Eve was spent mostly over Ken's. Actually, that was all of break.

My family Christmas Eve was at our house this year... Again, for the 3rd year in a row. I hate it how Linda tries to be nice, and volunteers to cook dinner, but she stresses herself out and makes life even more of a hell for the rest of us. She's seriously sick in the head. After dinner at my house, I went with Ken to church and then to his grandpa's to spend time with his family.

Christmas day, I spent the morning with my dad, Linda, and Nikki and Johnny, Linda's kids. Usually Linda does the gift shopping, and she did this year too. And she actually did good this year. (A little background... 2 years ago, one of the gifts she got me was a Venus razor, and not a stocking stuffer. Last year, she bought all the gifts in Canada, and when she crossed the border, she couldn't have them wrapped, so when They got home, they handed me a brown box, with all of my UNWRAPPED gifts inside.) So this year, they got me a DVD/VCR player combo, a blanket that's knitted, and it's really warm and heavy.

After my house, I went over Ken's and exchanged gifts with him and his family. That's where I got all my presents from Ken. I'll list everything I got later. After Ken's, I went over my mom's boyfriends sisters house. I had dinner there with my mom, Dann(moms boyfriend), and his sisters family. It was good. They had a crab dip appetizer!!! It was awesome.

After Christmas, my break wasn't very eventful, except for my birthday. I went to Orleans bar in Mt. Clemens with Ken, Laura, Shannon, Robyn, , Laura E, my mom and Dann. It was a good night. I drank a lot, and got really drunk.

New years, I went over Ken's. We had Al and Lisa over, and we played pool and euchre all night. Keith and Aleece came over later. Aleece was already drunk. At midnight, we all had our kisses, and drank champagne. Keith's cork ended up behind the Christmas tree!! Everyone ended up leaving around 4 AM, so I stayed the night.

After new years, I spent more time with Ken and his family. He left a few days later, and I came back up to school on the 5th. Since then I've been putting my room back together and getting ready for classes.

So this is what I got for Christmas:
-Michigan State sweatshirt
-Cast Away
-My Best Friend's Wedding
-a Squish pillow
-Tommy Girl perfume
-some make-up
-$400 for my birthday, and with that I bought:
-A new printer
-an alpacha pillow
-a gold ankle bracelet
-new shoes (brown boot type)

That-s all I can remember.

Part of the reason why my break was so good was because Ken and I decided to work things out. I got to spend a lot of time with him, and it seems like things are getting better. I'm just really glad we decided to try again.

Anyways, I have to get going.

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 03:41:16 GMT

I am truely happy. My life is coming back together.. But this time, it's going to be better than before. Broken things will be fixed. Wrongs will be made right. Bonds will be made stronger, and deeper.

Life will be better.

SHMILY

Randomness

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 02:15:14 GMT

This is what I do instead of studying... find random pictures...

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 05:11:13 GMT

Top 10 reasons why I want to live in Florida:

10. palm trees
9. 70 degree Christmas
8. crystal blue water
7. I don't have to clear the snow off my car evertime I want to go to the store
6. no snow
5. sandy beaches
4. I can get a job at ANY hospital
3. palm trees!
2. Warm weather!
1. PALM TREES

Some points to ponder...

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 19:30:24 GMT

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart... if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own....when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 22:55:22 GMT

I can't believe that this semester is almost over. Another week and a half of classes, then finals, then Christmas break. OMG... This semester has flown by. I remember being so nervous to start classes. I can definately say that I have learned a lot, in and out of school. I can take x-rays. Not on real people of course, but eventually I will. I am currently in the process of trying to get site visits to the hospitals I'm interested in. I have four hospitals that I'm interested in: Munson in Traverse City (choice #1), North Oakland in Pontiac (#2), Central Michigan Hospital in Mt. Pleasant (#3), and Holland Community Hospital in Holland (tied for 3rd). My dad asked me why i was so interested in Munson... I told him because it wasn't home. I just want to be somewhere, anywhere but home. Yes, I would save money if I lived at home, but then I would have to deal with Linda. And if I can avoid her, that would be spectacular.

I finally talked to my dad about how she's a bitch to me when he's not there. I told him that she bitched to my aunt about me, while I was RIGHT THERE. She called me a dissapointment for not staying home for Thanksgiving. "I guess it's ok to live here, and for us to pay her bills, but do you think she could spend one day with her family?" I do live there, WHEN I'M NOT AT COLLEGE DUMBASS, and you don't pay my bills. I do, considering I only have one, my cell phone. Everything I need, clothes, toiletries, I pay for. I'm paying for my own schooling too. So, I told him everything, and he said he would talk to her. Wether or not he will, I don't know. And I don't know if she'll stop being a bitch to me when he's not around. If she doesn't stop, I tell him again. And you might be thinking, "why not go to Linda directly?" That is useless. She is so stubborn, and she doesn't respect me. She would blow me off. Besides, I'm the baby in the family, and I'm the only one in school trying to get myself a life. Oh well.

It took me 7 hours to get home last Wednesday. I left Ferris at 4, I pulled into my driveway at 11!!! I was even stopped for a few minutes. That was around 8, and I remembered that I hadn't fed my fish, so I got out of my car, went to the trunk and got the fish food out of my bag! Thankfully, he survived the 7 hour car ride. Bettas can't really handle a lot of stress. But he's ok.

Well, I have things I could be working on.. Homework.. yeah right!!!

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 20:17:33 GMT

I'm so fucking sick of everything. What's the point anymore? I want to go back to school, and not be here, and be by miyself.

Things will probably never go back to normal.